This is under the agreement between myself and Selma where I reveal certain aspects of the current investigation. We're currently in a disclosed location underground in Russia (Mr Kozel, Selma and myself) in an attempt to access files concerning the area where my last phone call was made. Our findings included the discovery of an abandoned safe house that was bare of any personal belongings. Mr Kozel spent the better part of this day retrieving any information concerning the area when we discovered that most of them have been put under Restricted Access by Intelligence. We will continue our efforts in understanding why my death has not only been confirmed but any details of my death is banned from public knowledge.
Apparently I must speak of more informal matters now. Recently we've abandoned my apartment for the safety of both Selma and Mr Kozel who has decided to stay in our company. He claims that there our others who may assist us in our search for the truth but I feel that if Intelligence is hiding my very existence from the world that there our people out there that I cannot trust, even the people I once considered friends. I worry for now for Mr Kozel and Selma. Mr Kozel, who is determined to let me go to rest, and Selma, who is just a child, and is putting herself in danger for me. The guilt is catching up with me. If she feels guilty of lying to her parents, then my guilt for pressuring her into doing this is ten fold.
My priorities are beginning to shift I believe. At first, I felt that finding what has happened to me will give release from this world. But never at the cost of another life. I would rather live a lonely existence as an omniscient memory of my former self rather than move on with another.
It all comes down to what we learn from these documents. All we know for sure is that what I knew prior to my death was enough to keep me silent permanently. This secret will come out, I have my faith in my companions. We will find you.
Natalya Smirnov
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